I’m not perfect.
I can actually be really annoying.
I worry too much
Spend too long on my hair
Walk on furniture
Eat ice cream straight out of the carton
Scrape the bottom of the yogurt cup
even though I know there’s none left.
Play with the pages while reading a book
Spend an hour making a playlist on my iPod
even if I’m only driving two minutes
Check the stove seventeen times leaving the house
before trusting it’s actually off.
Spill cereal everywhere
the floor, the bed, the keyboard
eating it by the handful
crinkling and crunching ‘til you will yell for me
to get a bowl or you’ll throw the box out.
I will ask you once, twice, ten times
if I should get another drink
though we both know I’ll end up having five more.
And, once I’ve had those plus five drinks
I will dance like a weirdo all over the bar
until you are thoroughly embarrassed.
I’m super picky and specific about food.
My parents tell me I’ll never get married
if I don’t learn to eat properly
but whatever. I don’t eat meat
Get used to it.
I’m cranky if I don’t exercise
I prefer daydreams to reality
I hate feeling bored, feeling useless
yet love when I have nothing better to do
than watch New Girl on Netflix.
I live in a personal time zone
I will say I’m on my way
when I’ve only just stepped out of the shower
and God forbid I leave the house without blow drying
I have certain routines I insist on keeping
but deep down
I long for the boy who will break them
who will teach me the art of adventure
so we never have to look back.
Because even though I guarantee I will make you crazy
I will make you want to scream and lock me out of the house
I will love you.
I will love you hard
I will love you fast
I will love you fiercely, wildly, deeply
I will do anything for you
Tie myself to the tracks for you
Take the bullet for you
Save myself for you
even when it would be so much easier not to.
So yes, I’m going to be annoying
but I promise you,
I’m going to be yours.
Yours. All yours.
I’m waiting for you
The wait is my tallest tower
My forest of thorns
My fire-breathing dragon.
But you are my knight
and you will find me.
Together we will make meaning
in a world without it.
In the era of internet cat sensations
one night stands
drunk mistakes and
we will mean something.
We will matter.
Love you already, future husband.
Can’t wait to meet you.